What I wish I could say to you

I had been waiting for this for so long and now that it has come and gone, it is difficult to get pass. I can’t just move on and pretend like nothing ever happened and even when I am able to move forward I will never forget. I know that this hasn’t been easy and that I am not making it any easier but I haven’t figured out how to handle this yet. I guess it is so difficult because I still don’t know what happened, I know what you said but I find it hard to believe that reasoning is enough… I truly hope that you find happiness and I wish you the best of luck on your journey but there will always be a part of me that wishes I was there beside you in everything that you go through. I hope that you understand this and know that no matter what happens I will always be here for you, no matter where life takes us you can always turn to me and know that I care and support you. I love you and that isn’t going to change.